Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Say My Name, Wait...What?

Breaking Bad.
Hands down one of the greatest shows I've ever seen.  There was a marathon on recently and I watched them all over again, loving every second.

Walter White knows who he is.  One of my favorite scenes is when he's telling a guy what he's done, and he says this:

"Say. My. Name."

He knows who he is. So does the man he's dealing with.  There's something so powerful about Walter White, whether you love or hate him.  He has power (and is mad with it). 

Say my name.

My name is Kelsey.

There are these quizzes you can take online. You've all seen them. Some of them are very silly - you know, the type that lead you to answer to get exactly what you want. Answers that are so stereotypical to the character in the book/movie that it's undeniable.

There are some quizzes though, that surprise me.  The questions they ask aren't leading like the sillier quizzes. The questions are about personality preferences and they draw you along the road.  I've taken a few of these for curiosity, and I always feel like I know the answer.

I went through one of these quizzes today and, once again, was caught off guard.  It was a Harry Potter quiz and pretty interesting in its line of questioning. There were a few that would obviously lead you to Voldemort, but most of them could go anywhere.

I answered to my best ability, and in my head I KNEW I would get Ron.  Of course I would get Ron. It just seemed to be where I'd go.
Imagine my surprise as I finished off the quiz and this popped up.
Who Are You? Take the quiz :) Click the picture

I'm no hero. I'm not the lead character. I'm the best friend or the next door neighbor. 

I had the same reaction once upon a time when I did a particularly well done LOTR quiz. The questions left me completely clueless as to what was behind each question.
Still, I knew I had to be Sam. HAD TO. Maaaaybe Pippin.  I wouldn't mind being Merry, but I didn't see that as being a possibility.  Sam or Pippin. 

Frodo shows up as soon as I finish.
For Disney Princesses, I figured if I got one at all it'd be someone like Aurora or Cinderella - the ones that don't do a lot of fighting for themselves. More damsel in distress.
But nope, I'm Belle - the girl who fights back (even if it's not very successfully).

I answer these questions honestly, but am surprised by the result. What does that say about me? 

We have images of who we think we are. As the year 2014 begins, I'm looking at who I think I am vs who I prove myself to be.

I'm looking at myself. It's so easy for me to be negative or allow the enemy to feed my low self-esteem.  That's not who I am. It's not what I was created for. If I believe those lies, I become them.
It's my choice to break free.

In 2014 I choose to break free.
I choose to be the "hero".
I choose to accept that, based on my casual honest answers, I am Frodo and Harry - I am brave and loving, willing to do what needs to be done for the sake of those I love.

Bring it on, 2014. I think you and I will be good together.  In the end, I hope I'm as sure about who I am as Walter White...
Though maybe not with the same outcome ;) 


LaDonna Cole said...

Kelsey, thank you for this transparent and heartfelt post. You are the hero! You are the good guy, perfect superhero who always chooses right over wrong, the loyal, willing and able to help in a crisis kinda gal. I definitely see that in you.

S. R. Karfelt said...

Definitely Frodo - it's the eyes.

And Harry, and after you went all wild west on Voldemort, we'd feel almost sorry for him curled up under the bench in the train station at the end.

If I were trapped on a foreign planet rife with intestinal aliens, I'd want you to wear the Sigourney transformer suit.

'Nuff said.

Kelsey-plain and simple said...

Love the responses. Thanks, Ladies :)
Steph, I don't know what an Intestinal Alien means...but it sounds awful.
I will wear the Ripley suit no trouble. I'll even cut my hair.